Cancer Sucks...........

Cancer Sucks.....
   It sucks up your energy, it sucks up your time and it sucks out your bank account. It will even try to suck all the color from your world. Cancer just plain sucks....
  Will the day ever come that when my first thought as I wake up or my last thought before I close my eyes at night won't be "cancer."
   For almost 10 years cancer has been like a dark cloud that hovers over me. No matter how bright the sun, there's that dark cloud. No matter how much I laugh or how great my day was come bedtime that dark cloud is still there. I just want to scream at it, "go away and leave me alone."
   Cancer makes even the most joyous person angry at times. I get angry when I don't have the strength to work for hours in my gardens. I get angry when I comb my hair and the sink is full of hair. I get angry when I have to re-arrange my schedule for cancer. I get angry when the chemo treatment makes me so tired that all I can do is lay in bed. I get angry that chemo is so expensive. Being angry is part of the journey for a person with cancer. We feel a hundred different feeling on any given day. But the feeling of strength and the faith to fight is there every second of the day.
   My journey is filled with a loving family and I'm blessed with a circle of friends who encourage me daily and who surround me with love and happy thoughts.
   But at the end of each day, as I set on my back porch I look around and see all the blessing that I have.
Cancer can pick on me all it wants but it will never, never win.