Part of the process.....

   It's been a rough two days. I just want to lie down and pull the covers over my head and wait to feel better. I have aches everywhere. It even hurts to breath sometimes. My fingers and hands tingle, my muscles ache, my back hurts and I'm light headed at times. Nothing taste good, even water don't taste the same. It's sometimes hard to explain how I feel on the inside, it's a feeling that I've never had before. I've woke up with hot flashes the last two nights. I get up and wipe the sweat off of me and then lay back down. I know it's just part of the process to kill this damn cancer. But I hate feeling like this. I did come to work today. I didn't want to lay around the house all day. Designing flowers takes my mind off it. I've been busy doing funeral work and there are a few boxes that came in that I need to unpack. I just keep telling my self the worse I feel the more the chemo is working inside of me. Even though the chemo is killing the bad cancer cells it's also killing the good cells. But that's part of it. Maybe just a couple more days of feeling bad......